The end of September has arrived, and so has the chilly weather.
With the change in seasons, the change in life seasons is coming as well. We are now set to be in our house by early November, which we are happy about, but that means one more month of craziness, and I am wracking my brain to see how to cope better this second month. I have been considering going to college again. Most applications for spring need to be in by late fall. But many career paths are not suited for working at home. The tides are changing and technology is making way for more flexible job opportunities. Everyday I am reminded, though, that I have a full-time job. Raising and teaching children. I would say mentoring, but with my frustrations and lack of outlets for stress-relief, my attitudes have not set the best example. Now, I am trying to work through what has worked and what has not thus far. Working out helps me feel better, I know. Finding time to de-stress enough just to get going on pushing play is another story. And, yet, I am reminded that these feelings are the same ones that led me to start this blog. The feeling of wanting to speed up, get things done, stick to a plan. But being reminded that there are times to slow down, tend to the here and now, and breathe. Plan for the unexpected. Note to self: Remember to breathe.
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I have spent half a day paying up bills that ended with our move and changing billing addresses with many companies.
Not exactly what I call a fun or educational morning. And now that the midday slump has rolled around, I have to catch up on schoolwork with my oldest and get some semblance of order to the day before dinner time is gone and the bedtime bell tolls. Also, I need a shower. After a semi-enthusiastic attempt at a 30 min. workout routine, I hope. Living with family is a blessing and also a little difficult. I am trying to make the best of it with my introvert sensitivities. The worst parts of myself have been peeking through between stress and lack of alone time. In order to cope, I have been drinking lots of decaf coffee and allowing myself to watch HGTV design shows in the middle of the day. I have thrown out my 9:30 AM school start time, am sleeping in, staying up late, and generally just living in the moment each day. I have taken our children out to coffee shops for lunch because I would really like to go alone, but it is the next best thing to go with kids and get weird looks from all the single Millennials. My mind and body are craving order and routine, but this moment of transition is like a wave, ebbing and flowing, almost overtaking me scattering my thoughts with all the things I need to do, then giving me a break, for a moment, to watch a movie complete with popcorn and ice cream. As someone told me yesterday, this moment in time will be a blip on our radar soon enough. That could be said about life stages, transition to motherhood, watching children grow, getting done with school. Really, a million things. But as we live through it, it feels all consuming. Funny how life works that way. Well, it shouldn't be a surprise, but in and among all this transition, I got sick.
And my kids got sick. And my husband got sick, very slightly, for a day or two. So, I am trying to get my wind in my sails again after being down for about a week. Funny how getting sick makes you push the immediate STOP button and just attend to the most important things. Survival mode. I am familiar with this feeling after motherhood. The running along as things work well, the wheels not squeaking, until STOP, the whole train is off track, and all everyone wants is for it to be back on track again. But in those moments of STOP, I find some solace now. And some much needed rest that otherwise would have not happened. I am still taking the liberty to sleep in and take a nap when my body needs it. I know, stay at home moms, especially homeschool moms, do nothing but sleep all day... Ha! Homeschool has still taken precedence, along with showers, eating, getting clothed and washing laundry. Hopefully the workout routine will start up again soon, once this congestion in my chest finally leaves. Any bit of overexertion leaves me in a coughing fit. Here is to breathing again in this new month. Happy September! |
KristinSabbath-keeping Christian. Wife. Homeschool mom. Lifelong learner. Amateur chef. Thrift shopper. Lover of hot drinks and design shows. Archives
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